#im just going through something rn
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Personal rant under the cut, keep scrolling, I’m fine I promise.
I keep getting artand writer’s block.
It feels like my only talent is slipping.
I am fucking NOTHING without my writing and drawing.
What even am I with my creativity??? I’m just….some weirdo
And even when I draw, it’s mediocre at best, 15 years of doing art and I still can’t fucking draw hands, I can’t draw two people without a fucking base, I can’t do shading and lighting, and I still draw heads too fucking big.
I can’t believe people actually even LIKE my art!! It looks so fucking flat and childish. I fucking hate it.
I can’t even commit to doing shit for the goddamn fic and webcomic I said I would do, I keep getting distracted by literally everything.
I can feel my creativity slipping, and I fucking hate it.
#cryptidteaparty#jekson speaks#jekson going through it#personal vent#i really am okay#i promise#im just going through something rn
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liking dnd is so funny because yeah you play the actual game sometimes but mostly you just think about the game and watch other people play the game and slowly go insane thinking about how much you wish you could play the game and hoping that buying more shiny rocks will fix everything
#dnd#dungeons and dragons#not going through something rn wdym haha...#i am FINE i have DEFINITELY played at least once in the last seven weeks#i am also definitely not the scheduling person in my group i am not stressed that no one has time for dnd apparently#i'm fine i just started another critical role campaign im fine im so stable#*screaming*#it provides seratonin but WHEN IS IT MY TURN TO BE HAPPY TO ROLL MY LITTLE DICE FUCK#it's okay i just need to buy more dice#that will fix me
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#tim drake#robin#dc comics#delete later#maybe idk#just havent posted in ages so i figured i should give u all something even if its just scribbs!! <3#im going through a tim phase rn he’s just my little guy of the month#my art
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My thesis supervisor: I've been thinking about something you said last week - that you aren't sure if you're going to do a master's degree. I believe you mean you're considering moving to another city?
Me: ...no. I'm not sure if I'm going to do a master's at all.
Him: why not?
Me: I worry it'll be too hard for me.
Him: [gives me a long look] Do you hear yourself?
#ajsidksnsksksjd#i only went there to ask if i can skip next thesis lab and to show him the spectra i worked on over the weekend#how did we end up talking about [gestures vaguely] this#he said he never forces students to do anything but he already has a msc thesis topic for me 😭#i was like im going through a hard time rn#and he said not to take any decisions then bc it's a bad idea and to wait for it to pass instead#bc then hopefully ill 'realize what im saying now' snjhsks#he also called me meticulous and of great intellectual potential and i was just like :')))#he doesn't give compliments away on a daily basis okay#he said im just not brave enough yet and that a chemist has to be a little crazy lol#phew my goodness did i need to hear something like this#txt#op#thesis tag
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tie tying doodles w ramblings on it in tags
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#angela lobcorp#benjamin lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#technically? never sure what and what not to tag#its cute.. the idea of benjamin showing her how to tie it. someone else probably dressed her in the first place before she woke up so she#likely didnt know how before. and you know ayin's ass isnt going to do that. besides the tie is reminiscent to benjamin as well#small doodle. wanted to do more i might depending on if i get motivated but her perception would allow her to process it and probably to it#first try. would there be pride? the pride she was able to pick up on such a thing quickly? a promise for later on down the line she would#be able to adapt? perhaps a hope? along with maybe a pride on angelas end for being able to do so. a small joy of able to do it first try.#even if her slower perception granted her a privilege humans didnt. it wasnt so sore of a thing at the moment. the wounds of time and pains#werent as of a all encompasing torrent as the hell she would he sprung into would be. the small joy or pride when she tied it later knowing#the reaction and knowing she got it first try. how capable she was. then for it to fade into monotony and a motion to do. a void of what#used to be there. no one to see and only to remember only to ever remember when she sees the tie that had been so strikingly like his#its like.. the feeling when you were so excited about something maybe you think of being a little silly later. but then it becomes so gutted#and devoid of what used to be there new memories maybe soiling the past experience. only to be left with what a void that you knew had been#filled with a positive light. its not there anymore. 'first try?' what a joke. were now on a try of countless repeats that have lost all#meaning and any ability to even ascribe meaning to.#anyways its only short doodles because im trying to find it in me to make a carmy angela piece and a yesod one rn. little scuffed but i#wanted to draw benj of men and angie#... at least i think she woke up clothed. no damn clue . would make most sense for her to be#it would be a little tortuous if she wasnt. either ayin doing it himself filled with rage and what was created with his own hands that#could never even begin to contain her warm but a mimicry and mockery done by his own two hands#then having to get close and even speak. or order or look at. but if it was in that situation benjamin wouldve done it actually with ayin#just staring through the glass not very respondent as benjamin has to help her into something or tell her what to do. having the man he#followed and was faithful to just... standing there and silent as he tries to help someone confused and only just beginning to become#concious open their eyes for the first time. all in all she was likely clothed before hand. still a bit disconcerting. not even awake or#begining to think at that point all but a body but not even one of flesh but one mechanical and man made - a Doll. given aspects and clothes#benjamin likely gave her a tie at that moment there if she were to be clothed. maybe a small marking of work or pass down?
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that scene in Elementary S3E12, “The One That Got Away,” about 11 minutes in where Sherlock is making scrambled eggs and Kitty enters the kitchen? He says, “these are for you,” Kitty responds, “i’m not that hungry,” and he repeats, “these are for you,” in a particular tone—
i just!!! i cried! this man cares SO MUCH and yeah, he’s an asshole, and yeah he ignores boundaries but oh my god!! my god, man, he CARES!
#elementary#elementary tv#jam posts#jam.txt#it really is just the act of. making food for someone you care about while theyre going through something horrible.#like yeah. of course you don’t feel hungry you’re reliving the worst moments of your life rn! but you gotta eat. so im making you food
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breaking the law and outing myself on the internet because i'm showcasing my senior dance thesis on april 28 at 6:30 and 8:30 pm Eastern Standard Time and i want You to see it
we don't have a livestream link yet but we will. in the meantime look at these cool posters and this cool blurb. ok now save the date SEE YOU SOON
#my stuff#my art#these posters went through 14 separate drafts. it was a harrowing and difficult experience#i am Fully Going through it which means 1) physical health is suffering 2) social life also but 3) the thing is going to be so fucking good#sarus is gonna be the best thing ive ever made when we finish it. i Know it#so i want you to see it because it's one of those ambitious stories where everything's bigger than life#and the world is old and young and scary and kind and people live fearlessly and with cowardice#BUT EVERYTHING WILL BE OK. IF YOU JUST KEEP WALKING. this is going to be one of those stories#so many dance blurbs and descriptions are like stupid technical like oh we explored the effect of weighing down our hands and feet#on our Center of Gravity and how it altered the rotational momentum of turns and jumps#or else they're stupid esoteric like oh the wind blew..... and the children wept and all over the world the oceans rose... (global warming)#so i was determined to make this blurb (which is going in the schoolwide email blast) accessible and provocative#and inviting#in a provocative way#im very Locked in rn. im Hyperfocused as fuck. i am not eating as well asi should be but IM TRYING#AND THATS WHAT MATTERS#im inviting all of u bc this is a piece that is going to try and say something and i want everyone ive ever loved to hear it#oghey bye
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how does one make art but good
#sorry im going through something rn idk#i dont. like my art right now#taking breaks from the dca but i dont JUST want to do other fandoms. i wanna be happy with my tsams art too :(#i dont know how to make it more appealing towards myself :[#char speaks#vent#<- eugh?
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Small ramble about my art
#I really feel like I've stagnated again and I'm pretty displeased by how I draw at the current moment.#I really hope to just sort of evaluate what I don't like#so i can go in and make some changes#its what ive always done in the past but its just sort of a pain#i couldn't be happier to have the drive to draw again#its been a while since its been this strong#but goodness its hard to push through and actually make something#ive started a bunch of drawings but cant commit to finishing them bc im just in a place where i cant capture the vibes or delicacies ect#I'll get to it though and get back to drawing#just means i might go through some style and process experimentation again#im not really down on myself or being overly critical#just sorta taking a good look at how i keep feeling about my art rn and#realizing its time to start trying to climb the mountain of improvement again#not that i ever fully stopped#but moreso i need to make a conscious effort about things#mini ramble over#i dont expect anyone to read this#bapple rambles
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of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)
#len speaks#star wars#revenge of the sith#empire strikes back#the force awakens#not tagging more films than that bc i cant b bothered. incoming tag ramble ahead bc i have sw brainrot rn and im making it everyones prob❤️#i rlly struggled 2 remember if id watched tfa or aotc more. i went w/ tfa bc it was formative to me as a teen and ive seen it probably 6ish#times? whereas aotc was the first sw movie i remember (specifically the scene of obiwan serving c*nt in the bar lmao) but i've only seen it#for sure 4.5 and maybe 5.5 times. the .5 is from when i got bored after obi-wan's scene ended and ran off to go play in the mud or smthn 😭#i'm sure tfa will eventually get surpassed in number of rewatches by aotc and rots bc i don't fw the direction of the ST but that's my#current ballpark estimate of my total number of rewatches#as an adult tho if i just wanna watch a star war i'll go with aotc bc it's fun and ends semihappily and i can turn my brain off for the#spinny lightsabers. it's great background noise or for if you're sick or whatever. rots on the other hand? i won't talk through that unless#i'm quoting it with my brother and i am LOCKED IN 100% entirely entranced by it all#i almost picked rogue one for the best quality answer but i think the character writing is weaker and the facial cgi is creepy. esb beats#it by a hair imho bc of that. the vader hallway scene goes hard tho!!!#also i'm not covering shows or games or books or anything else in this post - simply the films. might ask abt shows later but that might#also give me hives bc so many of the shows suck ass and i don't rlly want ppl extolling the virtues of t.bb in my notes 💀#and yes i do think one's enjoyment and one's opinion of quality are two things that often overlap. but sometimes you just like something#bad and that's awesome. like rots is the best of the prequels by a large margin and i adore the opening and characters and many of the#scenes but that doesn't mean it's the best star wars has to offer ykwim? it's my specialest most favoritest sw movie but that doesn't blind#me to the dialogue lmfaooo
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I just had some violent flashbacks of the peepaw polls. Hit me like a truck
hey bestie did u mean to drag my ass down with you
#i still hold rottmnt near and dear to my heart but my god. that experience was certainly something man. truly a once in a lifetime event#that i do NOT care to repeat my god. i know im in a place of privilege bc i got so far in the tourney but like. some of the fan base was#NOT very friendly to some folks at all and i did not care for it. meaning that any of those people i do NOT fuck with at all it was NOT tha#deep. chill out. i hated what that subsection of the fandom turned into and i hated that i might have participated in it and therefore#enabling it whether intentional or not. i just wanted to have fun.#people were getting Way too comfortable being mean and getting too comfortable putting certain blogs on pedestals which inevitably turned#certain spaces into like. worshiping those poor people who just wanted to run a blog for funny turtles. and i wanted NOTHING of that#i already did my time doing that (being the one to put a blog on a pedestal) and i do not want another fucking repeat of that oh my god it#was so fucking exhausting and a kick to the face when i got left with nothing at the fall out bc im pretty sure i didnt do shit but thats#unrelated so do not ask me about it#MAN THAT WAS BEFORE MY GMA DIED THATS CRAZY#anyway i didnt mean to turn this into a semi vent essay fucking oops#suffice to say i was going through uhhhhhh A Lot before i found and got way too into whatever the fuck im into rn#chiangy answers#anyway. any turtle followers that still look at this blog#lol. that was part of why i silently bowed out of rottmnt so silently
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hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 nick!#彡 inbox.#evie.ss#omg good morning nick! my stomach literally twisted and flipped seeing this /pos /POS /the most positive gut wrenching feeling in existence#NICK AND THE REASON WAS ? WHY DO U NOT HAVE A KOFI LINK WHERE IS IT …. THIS ISNT OK I NEED TO FIND IT???? U CANNOT BE … BE …. BE UM … YOU K#I NEED TO 😭😭😭 I NEED ….. IS IT OBVIOUSLY IM CRYING WRITING THINSSJSJSN /pos /ULTRA POS THIS IS SO CUTE UR ART IS SOOOO AWESME IM SO IN AWE😭#typos: obvious* <- & barrier* -> amazing work evie#i broke the sound banner with the screech i made seeing this …. YOU … YOU DREW ME … THE EXACT WAY ….. I .. ITS SO SPOT ON I ????? I … IM#FLABBERGASTED . SHELL SHOCKED . GOBSMACKED IM SO OBSESSED WITH HOW U DID MY HAIR …. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I DO MY HAID … AND THE CURLS ARE LI#LIKE THAT… IM SO OBSESSED WITH UR STYLE JSJSJJD HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID IT???? UR STYLE IS MMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!! 1000/1000!!!!!! in specif#the colors … the colors are gorgeous and sooo nice to gaze at … the little wings … HOW DID YOU KNOW I LIKE- IM SO . (hugs knees and cries#YOU DREW THAT DRESS AWESOME-LY …. IM GENUINELY LOSING MY MIND AND I HAVENG EVEN .. looked at *him* ….. nick …. im complimenting it and i#can’t even see rn HEJSJCKCNITS BLURRY 😭😭 my head hurts so bad from sobbing but ive never been happier /pos IM SO ???? I LOVE HOW U DREW ME#i went to go triple check for the kofilink and found myself browsing through puppetgear tag once again u^u JENDNDKXJ oh my god . PLEASEEEEE#ok…. moze … he’s … so tiny .. he’s so cute … he looks so grumpy :’) /pos AND YOU .. u captured his squishable look omg….. he’s so teeny he’#literally as big as a fingernail on my phone im :’) HES POCKET SIZED I CANT BELIEVE U DID THIS /pos /ETERNALLY GRATEFUL#WHY 😭😭😭😭😭 YOURE SO KIND IM SO . IM SITTING ON THE FLOOR OF MY ROOM SNIFFLING AND HICCUPING AHENDNJXKC AND STARING AT THIS OF COUESE#i just saw the ask 😭 i definitely don’t mind im literally on my hands and knees to thank you and it’s still not enough JSNSNDNMC i have to#dig a dent in the hole and bow inside the hole …… it’s not enough … i genuinely love every square inch of this JSNDNXN i just adore … how u#did me … how u did moze (so— everything) even the circle in the background is a color that i adore 😞😞 sniffle …..#what a treat to see moze in ur style 😭😭 what a HUGE . Nice . AMAZING. TREAT . he looks so good in ur style UGH I WANNA FLOAT AWAY#the physical reaction i had in my stomach & head is unmatched /pos …. it’s vaguely similar to when u get called on in class while nervous .#and ur stomach flips .. but in a positive / EVSTATIC / insanely happy way … thank you so much omfg (link?) (please?) you are so kind ….#i don’t even know how to convey my gratefulness so im resorting to crying-staring-crying-staring-crying#(cries)#oh i never answered ur question haha :’) yea im great! :’) and you? :’)#im gonna put this in queue >/////< URK IM SO …. THANK U NICK ))))))):::: (link perhap?)#edit: OHHHH I SEE HOW U DID MY HAIR COLOR!!!!! that is so cool hello? it’s black- but not? and it fits so perfectly!!!! THAT IS SOO COOL WJ#NO WONDER I WAS ADMIRING THE COLORS EARLIER THIS IS SUCH A COOL THING (nonartist tries to explain how neat something is) NSNDNXKK
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I certainly have my own concerns about the treatment of moo deng but um. well i think some of you may just be racist
#this ^ isn't directed at any post in particular but instead a lot of comments ive seen. but now im gonna talk about other posts down here#and prefacing anything i put in the tags here with DONT TAKE MY WORD FOR IT DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH#but the biggest post ive seen going around rn about moo deng being mistreated and the general quality of khao kheow zoo is questionable#claims that the enclosure is mostly concrete seem to be false from all the sources i can find#the concrete section looks like its specifically around the feeding area which fits zoo care guidelines which specify that the feeding area#be a surface that can be easily cleaned separate from the substrate and is a surface present in other zoos#the lack of deep water also seems to be purposeful? older videos of the same enclosure show deeper water areas#and looking back through the news every baby pygmy hippo announcement from every zoo i could find mentioned periods where the baby had to#learn to swim and was slowly introduced from shallow water to deeper water as time passed#this was also corroborated by fowlers zoo and wild animal medicine volume 8 which suggests keeping the mother dry and then slowly#introducing water as the baby grows as a potential best practice#damn im treating this like a paper now. anyway the negatives#there are absolutely things that strike me as bad eg. public access to the hippos and the way the keeper interacts with them#for the keeper stuff in particular i'd really like to see input from someone who has experience as a zookeeper with pygmy hippos#the public access is something that i def think the zoo could improve on and even older footage from years ago shows people sticking like#selfie sticks and shit off the side of the railings and right into the hippos faces#however again the zoo seems to be making efforts to curb visitor behavior which is tough when you go from having 800 visitors a day to#4000+ and you can't remodel the whole exhibit right then and there#all this to say! just do your own research and take somewhat inflammatory comments on the internet with a grain of salt#also just to make it clear im not making any sweeping statements on khao kheow or the treatment of moo deng im just summarizing what i foun#based on what's being said in the most popular post on the subject ive seen.#for the potential like three people who will read all this hi :) hope ur having a nice day
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recently I've been thinking about getting all dolled up and putting on my favourite outfit and going out to dinner with my butch, giving them little teases of the lingerie I'm wearing underneath every so often. we'd get home and they'd drag me up the stairs, dragging me over to the bed and sitting me down. hard packing, they'd pull out their dick and grab the back of my hair, messing up my makeup with gentle slaps, and smudging my lipstick with the head of their dick.
I'd suck them off until I'd left a red ring at the base of their cock, and mascara was smudged across my cheeks. they'd pull out and gently wipe away the makeup stains before pulling me up and turning me around, pushing my upper body onto the bed. after pushing my skirt up, their hand would drift up my inner thigh, the other gripping my hip.
I'd make sure to not wear underwear but not tell them, much to their surprise when their gaze falls to my trembling thighs and already dripping folds. knowing that they're smirking at this, revelling in how worked up I am already simply from sucking them off. they'd easily slip one finger in, feeling me clenching around them, already desperate for more.
needing to see my face, they'd pull out and flip me over, kissing me hard and fast at first and then slowing, melting into it. for the next few hours I'd be breathless and tear-streaked from being edged, begging and crying for any sort of relief but not knowing when or if my butch would decide to grant me that.
#oop okay super long post im not very good at these so i apologise but im just obsessed with this fantasy rn#theyre gonna see this later and be like O.O#ily honey <3#living out my fantasies on tumblr because I'm going through a scared of sex phase cause of asexuality and bad things#wish i could give my gf something like this#so instead i wrote it because i knew he'd like it#mysticfemme's post#long post#butchxfemme#butch#femme
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talkin’ about dat boothill smell… i dunnoooooo… nesting n stuff… makes your mind all fuzzy n warm n stuff because you’re surrounded by blankets n an absurd amount of pillows you’d think in regards to himself— n it all smells like that smoke his, some syrupy hint from far off pine trees, gunpowder creating a bit of a bitter taste in the back of your throat but it’s so nice— the kind of bitterness you’d chase down in alcohol, swallowing up insatiably. ‘n that smell just. surrounding you, all bundled up, bleeding into your mouth especially when he refuses to remove himself from you. a little whine perhaps if you even shift a ghost of a fragment away, his hips curving. maybe some little mechanical groan that’s so gooey and molten about your own softness.
there’s that leather too, scotch and whisky combined in his needy breaths. and his scent just melts more into you, making you feel almost fucking high at this point; and you’re so cozy and squished and it’s all just him. which really is exactly what he wants. to keep you nice n comfy n full, satiated, thanks to him. to keep his scent bleeding into you.
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YOU CANT DO THIS TO MEEEEEEE im gonna dieeeeee 😭😭😭😭
#sal.asks#thrashing around like a dog with a chew toy#andnfbsjdjdbhsjs i cant handle it !!!!#i don't know how to make fragrances but i am THIS 🤏 CLOSE#to giving it a try#godddbshshhdbsbs#pine tar... anon u r so beautiful and sexy and smart......#this might be a weird one but i think he permanently has some kinda like.....#permanent horse smell on him.. like the ghost of it.. just a hint#i wish i could think of some kind of fuckin. farmhand au with him#which to be fair it sort of what im doing with the pre-ipc au#but still. idk.#him carefully guiding you through your first horseback ride#and he picks you up by the hips and plops you on the saddle like you weigh NOTHING#and then he climbs on behind you and his thighs are bracketing yours#and he's so warm and firm and he smells so good and ausjdjjffbjjff....#you have to actively try to remember how to comprehend words because he's trying to. y'know. teach you#“c'mon sugar. loosen up. ya gotta let your hips move with it.”#and then he leans close with the most smug fucking tone and he goes#“'less something's got ya distracted?”#right in your ear. with all that fucking gravel and huskiness. and his breath is warm on your ear#aushhtbsnijsbrnejsjwbensj#this was a tangent idk where i was going with this.#🥛 anon#making me think evil thoughts rn
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This photo was life-ruining for me(and @sweatyflytrap ) honestly....
#wanna make a comp of bahrain 2010 for both seb and nando tbh#probably seperate but#there was something in the air that weekend!!!!#i was religiously looking through seb pics from this race the other month to draw statue seb#and was super enamored w him aasjkfkgl but didnt look too much depeer cause i didnt wanna spoil the podium#and then i finally got here and damn nando looked fucking majestic on the podium#like i was absolutely dying making those gifs bcs he just looked so beautiful#<- i actually made a comp of all the close up shots bcs bark bark bark 😵💫😵💫#AND THEN I GO LOOK UP THE PICS AND MY GOD 🫠🫠 LIFE RUINING#this pic is from before race day obviously but like smth was in the air no?????#all the podium pics live in my head rent free. golden and shining and beautiful#but i also downloaded like...100 pics of him from this race so jusy this one seemed pretty baseline to post#but just know. bahrain 2010. haunts me.#as i said im so irritated it wasnt a vett/onso podium bcs my god both of them were slaying that wknd#well yeha. there's my rant. maybe ill make a comp :)#smth also that i find funny is that he was pretty stubbly for the whole wknd but then#shows up for the race itself smooth like a dolphin....HE KNEW!!! HE KNEW HE HAD TO SLAY!!! HE KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE ON THAT TOP STEP#*lmao maybe my comp post would be titled: 'pics from the 2010 bahrain gp that were life changing'#im looking back at the podium pics rn and its just insane how youthful and bright and pretty he looks#also abt this specific pic. his lashes his big cow eyes his pink lips his fluffy hair GODDDDDDDDS#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#2010 bahrain gp
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